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Another year....

 Started January 2, 2012
     So here we are...2012.  I have never been a big New Year's kinda gal.  Just not my thing.  I just can't get excited about it. Never have, probably never will.  It's just another year..I will turn 53, Dana 55, Nick 17.  Dana and I will celebrate 17 years of marriage, Nick will be a senior in high school.  It's just another year.
     I am entering this year feeling a little stronger.  I think it is thanks to your prayers, so please keep them going.  At weekend, after Epiphany, we will take the decorations down.  It is the first year in many that I think our tree is quite pretty.  I have enjoyed it this Christmas.  I am trying to make peace with the fact that I will always miss my parents everyday forever.  I read this article where Robin Gibb ( a Bee Gee) was talking about losing is twin, Maurice, a few years ago.  He said he could not come to terms with it and thinks of it as Maurice being out in the world somewhere and someday he will call.  It made sense to me because I think that is how I think of Kirk.  Death is too big a concept for me in relation to Kirk. I just wonder when he will call! :)
      So, this year I am working on getting my act together.  I have 18 months to lose about 100 lbs.  I will be at a healthy weight when Nicky graduates in June, 2013. I have been reading some nutritional websites and I am thinking of trying a meal delivery program.  The one at e-diets has gotten good reviews and the food is fresh, not  frozen.  I think this is a good option to start off with so I don't have to think too hard about food. I think having to count calories and weigh food would just make me not do it.  Not to mention how much I don't like to cook.  We shall see...I can't afford it until we have some income.
     A week or so ago, when walking home from a hair salon, I passed this place called Kru Strength & Fitness.  It looked interesting, so I looked them up on the internet. For $65 a month they will develop a personalized cardio program for you and you have unlimited access to the cardio equipment and classes.  No contracts or anything.  I think that it could be a good fit for me.  But again, when we have some income.  So, in the meantime I try to watch what I eat and move a little.  I guess time will tell..
     There is this hair salon on Clark, just on the other side of Foster.  They are too expensive for me, but I saw an add looking for hair models for haircoloring.  They charged $25 to cover the cost of the materials.  So, I splurged and for $25 I got great color!  It is pretty cool.
     Well, I think that's all I got for right now.  If you have been praying for me, please continue to - I think it is helping!  And if you're inclined please add a prayer for Dana to find a job and for Nicky as he has finals in a couple of weeks.
      xox and Happy New Year to you all.

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