I have not looked or even thought about this so called blog since the last entry. Sadly, in all that time, nothing has changed. Pretty pathetic, I know. Nicholas graduates a week from Monday and I have not lost a single pound. I may have gained a couple more though. What is wrong with me!?!
Dana remains unemployed after almost 4 years. We have exhausted our savings and all of our retirement funds. We have sold all my jewelry and are in the process of selling books and movies. We have struggled to pay our rent for the last 7-8 months. We have some great friends who have helped when they can. God Bless them. Surely, between death, debilitating depression, job loss, huge money worries and all the other bad luck we have had, we must be due very soon for a run of good luck and happy times. Pray for that for us please.
Graduation - my one and only is graduating high school on June 17th. He will turn 18 on June 25th. It has been amazing watching him grow-up from the baby and toddler who hated sharing his mom; to the elementary school child who loved school and learning and always had a million questions and learned to share his mom but never really liked it; to teenager in high school who still loved school, made great friends and started figuring out who he wanted to be and what he believes. (He no longer minds sharing his mom, as long as he still gets some one on one time with her.) It has been a great journey and Dana and I are blessed to have had a front seat to watch.
He will leave for college in the fall, to the University of Rochester in Rochester, NY. The roles start to reverse because I may not be ready to share him with the world. But, I have no choice; it is time to let him go and discover himself and the world. I can only trust that I taught him well. That he will be able to recognize right from wrong, good from bad. Time to see if he accepts or rejects what he learned growing up in our home. However, when your child chooses to reject one of the fundamental things such as God, you wonder what else he may reject and realize perhaps you didn't do as good as you thought you did. Perhaps I am just over thinking it all, as I have been told I'm apt to do.
So I will attend his graduation as fat as ever, and be as proud as any parent there. And Nicky, who loves me unconditionally, will not even notice, he'll just be happy I'm there.
Congratulations Sweetpea! I could not be happier for you or more proud of you.
Dana remains unemployed after almost 4 years. We have exhausted our savings and all of our retirement funds. We have sold all my jewelry and are in the process of selling books and movies. We have struggled to pay our rent for the last 7-8 months. We have some great friends who have helped when they can. God Bless them. Surely, between death, debilitating depression, job loss, huge money worries and all the other bad luck we have had, we must be due very soon for a run of good luck and happy times. Pray for that for us please.
Graduation - my one and only is graduating high school on June 17th. He will turn 18 on June 25th. It has been amazing watching him grow-up from the baby and toddler who hated sharing his mom; to the elementary school child who loved school and learning and always had a million questions and learned to share his mom but never really liked it; to teenager in high school who still loved school, made great friends and started figuring out who he wanted to be and what he believes. (He no longer minds sharing his mom, as long as he still gets some one on one time with her.) It has been a great journey and Dana and I are blessed to have had a front seat to watch.
He will leave for college in the fall, to the University of Rochester in Rochester, NY. The roles start to reverse because I may not be ready to share him with the world. But, I have no choice; it is time to let him go and discover himself and the world. I can only trust that I taught him well. That he will be able to recognize right from wrong, good from bad. Time to see if he accepts or rejects what he learned growing up in our home. However, when your child chooses to reject one of the fundamental things such as God, you wonder what else he may reject and realize perhaps you didn't do as good as you thought you did. Perhaps I am just over thinking it all, as I have been told I'm apt to do.
So I will attend his graduation as fat as ever, and be as proud as any parent there. And Nicky, who loves me unconditionally, will not even notice, he'll just be happy I'm there.
Congratulations Sweetpea! I could not be happier for you or more proud of you.
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